Resolution

This year, I decided that for my resolution, I would start doing the things I love more often.  I used to play piano all the time and write music, and I used to draw and paint.  I figure it's time to start up again.

Writing on here will hopefully warm me up for writing music again.  In and English class that I took in high school, we would always begin by writing for ten minutes.  It didn't have to be anything in particular.  We only had to keep our pens moving.  We could write lyrics to our favourite song, a to-do list, our own poetry, or what I used it for: a diary.

I wrote everything I was ever feeling in that journal.  There are days where I wrote so happily in neat writing about an event I was looking forward to, and there were days where I would scribble awful things about whatever was making me upset.  Then, when it came time to do a creative writing project, I could look back into my journal and gather ideas.

Our teacher promised not to read anything we had written, but at the end of the term, we would have to show her our journal, and she would flip through just to make sure we were actually using that ten minutes every day to write something down.

I'm hoping now that I have begun writing again, that it will influence my song-writing.  I used to only write about depressing things in my teen angst.  I would either empathise with what others went through and write about that, or I would write about things that I was going through but amplify the sadness.  I found it much easier to rhyme with words like dead, cold, blood, and hate than rhyming with happier words.

I've never been much of a romantic, so I find it really difficult to write about love and happiness poetically. However, it is what I feel now.

This blog is the first step to doing what I love again.  I love to write.  It gets my brain working in ways nothing else does.  It constantly challenges me to be creative (whether it be in words I choose, or just what I write about), and it lets me share things I feel with others who care to read my work.

I'm hoping to one day read through what I have written and have something jump out at me to use in song lyrics.  For now, I'll keep exercising my mind, and enjoying this.  I'll hopefully get a few sketches in every once in a while when I have downtime, and soon I'll be writing music again.

I think it is so important not to lose who you were before you had children.  I have felt absolutely lost without a way to be creative.  I've even done silly things like cutting Jude's perogies and placing them on a plate to look like a pointsetta at Christmas time.  But, I guess whatever I can use as a canvas will be fine for now.  Be it perogies, or an actual canvas.  Now, just to find the time...