Happy With What I've Got. Too Young to Quit

Hey everyone!  Sorry I haven't updated in a while.  I think I'll try to make sure I'm posting at least once a week!

After having Murphy, I told Wade that maybe we could stick with just the two boys and be done having kids.  I like having two little guys.  I figure that in 18 years, Murphy will be graduating from high school and I will be 38, and wade will be 39.  Then we could be alone together for pretty much the first time in our marriage.  Obviously Jude wasn't born yet when we got married, but we knew he was coming!

That sounded like a good idea to me.  To be young and an "empty-nester".  That is, until I said "empty-nester" out loud.

Thinking of my boys starting kindergarten has given be bad dreams.  I never want that day to come.  I will miss them so much when they are off at school!  I don't even want to think about when graduation comes along, and they move away from home (which happens all too quickly I am warned).  And when I am not quite 40, most of my friends will probably still be picking their children up from school every afternoon, and having supper as a family.  When I think about it, I never want to give that up.

Of course, I will have to release my children into the real world at some point, but I definitely don't want a childless home in my thirties.

Someone told me that when you have a family, and you don't know if you want more kids or not, you will just notice that something is missing.  When I think of it that way, I know for a fact that I want more kids.

I know I'll have to stop eventually, and one day have an empty house, but hopefully by then I'll be ready.  Maybe I'm just thinking too much and looking too far into the future instead of enjoying what I'm not wanting to change, but as a young parent it really is something to think about, I think.  Even if we have an average number of kids, our home will be empty when we're the same age as parents of young children.  

That's just something that has got me thinking lately and if it's all going to happen so fast, I'd better think about it! :)